I’m sharing this just because I feel like it. And the journal category seems like the right place to do it. Hopefully this will be interesting to some, and maybe I’ll get some interesting feedback or food for thought as well.
First of all I’ll get this out of the way. I’m tired of talking about toxic people and tired of explaining what they are, just because that in and of itself is giving them too much energy. And then having or asking others to read about them is asking others to waste their energy in a sense. But… this gives the setting. So the plot will make sense.
I’m living with a toxic person at the moment. That gives me plenty of opportunity to test and try out different shields and other fields that may help in that environment. Here’s my definition of a toxic person boiled down: A person who does not produce their own self worth but instead goes about trying to confiscate self-worth from those who have done the work to gain it for themselves. They do this by lying to the “victim”, to others, and to themselves. The nature of the lie is always that it falsely lowers the victim’s value while falsely boosting their own value. The means of lying can be verbal, or in tone of voice, or in facial expression, or in an action that communicates a message.
K, that’s done. Moving on.
Lately I’ve started using Empath Protection, Chameleon Protection, Grounding and Mind Control, all mandalas. I don’t want to get too much into how each one helps because this could become longer than an essay. Mind Control helps me not to dwell on the things people have done or said. Grounding keeps me grounded in reality, making it harder for me to slip into any delusional narrative that a toxic person tries to pawn off on me. Chameleon makes them usually leave me alone. Empath keeps their energy from getting through to me.
So, they leave me alone more often, their energy doesn’t get through, their BS doesn’t get through (MC and Grounding). It’s a fairly comprehensive strategy. Still, I’ve noticed they still like to screw with me. It’s not working, but they still try. They can see that I have self worth. I’m not going to try to “fix” the problem by getting rid of it either. That’s not where this is going.
It’s nice to have a house that no one can break into, and that usually no one tries to break into, but in this metaphor, most of us would still aim to have a house that no one tries to break into and yet is still a valuable house, not a dump, right?
So I’ve started listening to Warrior Archetype. I don’t have the mandala yet. I can already tell that it’s going to put off that vibe that I’m not a target, that I’ll stand up for myself. And I know it’s going to piss off the sickos. And that’s fine. It may deter more misguided and unsuccessful attacks (which I’d still rather avoid), and it may bring new types of attack or anger. Time will tell.
But. There is one more thing. One Big Red button I haven’t pressed in a long time. I have this subliminal called Directional Reflective Shield. From Indigo Mind Labs. I don’t work for them in any way but I figured someone would ask, so that’s who makes it. It works crazily freakishly well. It weaponizes your aura. Not their words for what it does but mine. They probably wouldn’t approve. Whatever energy anyone sends at you ends up hitting them. It deters attacks. And it confuses the hell out of assailants.
The instructions say not to use it with any other kind of shield. I am anyways. As of right now. For the first time. I truly do not know what kind of results this will produce. Already I feel very different from when I used to listen to this sub. I think the transmute aspect of Empath Protection is why. Before, I felt an intensity of will and almost an anger sending out and away from me residual false accusations of various sorts whose energy I suppose was just laying around hanging out with me still.
But right now I feel very light and free. There’s a lot of lightness in my heart chakra area. Not bubbly or any crap like that. Just light, unburdened. It’s good.
So, tomorrow I get to put myself out into the world again as a walking magical science experiment. Much as I have done many times before. This time is different. The Warrior I can feel is intense. The Reflective Shield I know is powerful. Now, with the other fields in place… we shall see.
One other note. This is my first time using this sub with the Energetic Field Converter. I’ve used it with another sub from the same producers once before. From that experience I can say that other sub affected me far more with the converter than it used to in the past. So again, this should be interesting.
