Hello forum family, it’s time to pour my heart out again. It’s been very quiet around me here for the last six weeks, but only on the outside.
At the end of December, I was the strongest version of myself I had ever known. I followed my routines, performed a daily manifestation ritual with actual small successes. I started learning to trade (I tried it last year, but gave up out of fear and feeling overwhelmed), and my life felt really wonderful.
Now, for four weeks, I have been battling illnesses that have confined me and my loved ones to bed. I am experiencing more external conflicts again, and my inner world, well… I feel like I am shouting at everything, doing everything badly, surrounded by walls of negativity and malice, and I can’t take it anymore. My thoughts are so aggressive and I currently have no strength to focus myself. I’ve started smoking weed again, but I can hardly breathe because of my illness.
There must be a simple solution. I just want to experience fun and joy and strengthen myself and my environment with my thoughts and emotions.
Maitreya, I’ve been thinking about writing reviews for weeks, but I can’t do it. To be honest, I just want to cry and lock myself away.
Thanks to Hero’s wonderful story, I’ve gained some strength.
@maitreya , can you perhaps recommend something that will help me cultivate positive thoughts and see the world and everything in it through God’s eyes, perfect as it is? That must be the solution to the puzzle.
We have a series of four mandalas that allow you to see everything through the eyes of God. Look for the “GY Series.” I haven’t bought it myself, so I can’t personally recommend it.
However, there are two mandalas I can definitely recommend:
DM: Remove Negative Energy - $19.99
DM: Removing Thought Forms and Parasites - $9.99
They quickly remove negative thoughts, whether they are your own or projections from other people, and they also eliminate the root causes. Even though I own more expensive mandalas, these two are my favorites. As I’ve mentioned before, I combine them and set them as my phone wallpaper. It works perfectly whenever I feel like negative thoughts are taking over.
I’ve also noticed that when my wife uses this combination on her phone, she stops overthinking and her mood improves. Naturally, mine improves too, because she stops projecting her internal negativity onto me.
I would suggest you to work on lowering your cortisol level. Read more about it, this comes from sympathetic nervous system. Get the new night time Nervous system field and use it for 10 days every night. Once nervous system is in parasympathetic, then RAS and Amygdela won’t fire fear based thoughts and cortisol will be lower. After this the negative feeling and thoughts naturally low.
When I can’t seem to get out of negativity I use the Divine protection against negative energy field and Divinity Activation, Divine Invocation on repeat.
Thank you nati! How could I forget about Divine Invocation
I also have to build some resilience again. The smallest discomforts were loaded with inner shitstorms.
Today I’m feeling already better, my mind is much more silent.
the fields work good, looped the nervous system nighttime field all night eventually my aggression also came from my body itself to force me and everyone else, to let me take rest and only rest for recovery. The sickness was very strong, I can understand why people die on “influenca” and contributing lungproblems
I have now removing thoughtforms and parasites, remove negative energy, microbiome, mental body detox, the blood of christ, return to sender, close portals and autonomous self and some shields in my folder and looped some of the audios. I feel at peace, weak but at peace
I am so glad you are feeling better. If you feel comfortable with it, pray. Prayer is incredibly powerful. I would also take physical steps besides the fields. Some examples may be:
Put your bare feet on the ground, imagine a cord connecting them to the core of the earth and ask mother Earth to heal you
Find supplements, herbs, nutrition to support you
Find crystals that nourish the body (root and sacral chakra stones come to mind), charge them and meditate with them
Exercise
Most importantly, recognize your own authority. If it is something bad (a thought, a contract, an entity etc.) and you don’t want it, it has to go.
Maybe give Genius’s declaration a go and see how it makes you feel.
I’m taking some supplements and drink only herbal teas.
Thanks for the hint with grounding and asking mother earth, beautiful tip! And the suggestion for genius’ declaration.
I did with my cruel visuals, wich appear from time to time what maitreya suggested once. And it works good, asking if this is mine. But it’s exhausting, the fields for the mind I’m actually using are helping.
One thing I noticed since my mind becomes slower and calmer, more peaceful is, I lack fun and joy in my life. I mean I knew this for so long, but now I really feel it. All my goal, earning 4k a month and having lots of free time next to my family to fullfill my needs how I want and have time to practice and explore, having fun. You know what, wven with comedyflow real laughing and having fun is very rare for me and I came to the conclusion that this must be a reason for my many illnesses. I lack fun und promising myself that then when I reach my goals, then I have time to be happy and have fun, I have to become something to allow myself to be happy. But no, I wanna have fun, now. When I’m on my legs again I start manifesting fun and get my skill back. I added the fool and the gy series into my folder, after I got inspired by @sikras67 again in his last postings.
I love Neville Goddard! He said in a lecture if you are confused about praying just express gratitude.
As far as I go, my two cents is to daily establish a connection with the Creator. Share how you feel. Thank him for your blessings. Ask for guidance. Send blessings to everyone you interact with or even large groups of people you think of.
eventually my aggression also came from my body itself to force me and everyone else, to let me take rest and only rest for recovery. The sickness was very strong, I can understand why people die on “influenca” and contributing lungproblems