There is something I experience cyclically. It usually comes before some kind of a breakthrough.
I will feel like there are events or people trying to bring my vibration down, trying to make me lose my balance. It is also in my dreams. I will get dreams in which I am being lied to or I experience some sort of negative interactions.
In my head, I call it “resistance” but it feels a lot like a healing crisis even though no fields are involved necessarily. I can also feel there is some kind of a lesson to be learned therein or that it is a sign that it is a time to persevere.
Does anyone else here feel like they know what I am talking about? What is it? How do you make sense of it in your head?
Try to check your astrology chart.
That’s what i do. Only the basics though but it helped me gain some insights.
I have some blockages with people and social setups and it made me super hyper aware of that.
I have lots of ideas and opinions but saturn and mercury makes me super analytical. So high inner filter.
I always get into situations where people are wondering why I’m not talking enough or I’m just too “quiet”…Then there’s someone else in the same group that is more quiet and introverted than me but he’s not being asked like that.
It’s like i’m being expected to talk a lot. Then when i do and the spotlight is on me, people listen closely.
But when it wasn’t, I’m basically invisible…like there’s no middle ground?
It’s frustrating. I’m learning how to be more extroverted but these types of situations are still there.
Do you feel safe to make the breakthrough?
Are you comfortable in uncertainty?
Can you take the leap with faith?
Is your vibration stable to handle the change?
It feels like a self sabotage, a pattern intended to keep you safe that can seem like a test, but it’s mostly you checking up on you to see do I feel stable and confident to make the jump knowing that my current situation would change through this breakthrough?
Maybe try breaking bad or the comfort zone expander to tide you over. If it’s a huge change, it can also indicate a lack of available energy in the system to make the breakthrough, in that case add more intensity to the practice to get the threshold crossing energy.
I have Periods like these, where my old negative Patterns show up out of nowhere.
And I can’t seem to control them on that certain day. What I can control though is my Perception.
I can clearly see the pattern, but I can’t stop it.
I just remain aware.
At the End there might be some Choice to make. It could be anything.
It could be about an addiction, about a relationship, about a loop that has been happening.
Usually something you experienced already, but in the past might have chosen to take the comfortable path.
And yes, your Vibration will be attacked, heavily. That’s a Period, where your Awareness must be sharp. And that’s where Focus is required. Just ihnore the NPC’s. They will gang up on you, but you just stay aware inside.
Once you choose Alignment, your current world might crumble. I’m not talking about material here, but emotionally.
I think this is called Dark Night of the Soul, where you might feel empty and lost for a while.
If you get through it though, you’ll feel even better than before. Lasts about a day. For me at least
Don’t take my words for 100% truth. Just trying to be wise here
Consciously, the answer would be yes to all these questions. Subconsciously, God knows what’s happening in my head lol. It almost feels like shedding something.
Thank you!
Yes, that hit hard. It’s like I am observing my negative feelings/mood but can’t really stop them from presenting themselves.
I was in this place for so long, At the end found out the nervous system is not feeling safe constantly and it created a loop. Once I started working on the physical nervous system safety everything started working.
It has happened to me too. I see those periods as tests of my progress; if suddenly some situation still makes me uncomfortable, then I dedicate some time to observing it: what feelings does it cause me? Why? Does this really come from me or is it some external influence? Is it a trauma wound that hasn’t fully healed yet?
I treat negative feelings like clouds; I observe them but I don’t chase them.
Sometimes it also helps to look at the astrological transits; sometimes a planet is affecting us and asks (or forces) us to deal with pending matters before moving on to the next level.
