So today I caved and bought the book of alchemical quintessence and SBR No More limits removal.
I’m kind of blown away by how well they work. I mean my intuition was going OFF about buying the SBR especially, but um… These are probably the best working fields I’ve ever used, just from day 1. I think the mixture of the two of them for my severe OCD is really making me wonder whether I’ll have severe OCD anymore by the end of the month.
Time to share a little backstory, which I hope isn’t too much information but I feel it’s necessary to convey how well these work. About a year and a half ago I found a lump on my back and thought I was going to die. It took me awhile to go to the doctor… maybe because my sense of self-preservation isn’t as high as it should be, but when I finally did a year later, it turned out I was fine.
The problem is, I have bad mental health and I obsess over things, and I already had sort of built up that anxiety and dread that I might not make it. And I’ve also been VERY into manifestation for the past 4 years so I thought that because I had believed I was going to die, I would die. (I now get that that’s not necessarily how it works, but I feel like I’ve been locked in a cycle of dread over this for like three straight months, and this is after me having a similar obsession for the previous three years about thinking my partner was going to die from my thoughts. OCD sucks!)
At this point I’m kind of in the present and even though I can tell that I’m probably not going to die because I’m still here day after day, I haven’t been able to get the feeling to go away. So I suspected it was an issue either with my subconscious mind, my etheric body, or my root chakra, or just all of the above. Basically trauma compounding.
Well it’s been a couple hours since I purchased these fields and I feel such a sense of safety and general okay-ness that I forgot existed… It’s felt like I’ve been in a nightmare for the past three months and now it’s starting to feel a little bit less like that.
I mentioned to my partner how well the fields are working and that I’d be keeping an eye on how they work for the next week… and it hit me and made me want to cry. That’s the first time in a long time I’ve been able to think about what will happen a week from now without proceeding to think, “But I may not be alive in a week.” I was doing everything I possibly could mentally, spiritually, and physically to fight these kinds of thoughts but they just kept relentlessly assaulting me… and now it’s getting better.