I didn’t think this would change my personality. Which sounds dumb to me even now saying that. Why wouldn’t it? I held the paper in my hands. Full size - printer issues -don’t ask. Said “Start. The powerball ticket I buy today will win the jackpot or second place which is still at least a million. Stop”.
Before saying “stop” I took a good amount of time to visualize the whole process and result of winning. All the details.
I felt nothing. But I really believed even at that moment something must have happened. I didn’t need to feel anything. I was sure so many of Sapien and Maitreya and even other producers fields have worked. This would work also. I’ve seen the effectiveness of her 5 dollar stuff. Heck of even her free stuff. So she wouldn’t charge 222 for something that did little.
I drove to the gas station. Noticed the guy who sold me the ticket treated me with more respect than people usually do. I’m no Rodney Dangerfield but I don’t exactly get a lot of respect either. Lol. I noticed it but thought nothing of it other than a fluke.
Then talked to a well known as toxic family member. Noticed speaking to her in a kind but confident way. Which is my usual style but a bit more than usual. Then she attacked me with condescension as an attempt to lower self worth which is her usual crap, but more than usual. I felt fine. Moved on.
Encountered another toxic hu-man. Like the one above. Male this time. Same thing happened. I thought “weird, I’m being nicer than usual and he’s hating more than usual… hmmm.”. But Chameleon and DRS mean I’m fine. Completely.
Checked the numbers finally, they came in. I got 1 number out of six. I’ve done worse.
Then it all dawned on me. My behavior has changed. My attitude has changed. It shows more worth and some respect that, some hate it. I feel a sense of lacklessness. A funny word I had to make up just now to express how I feel. Cause it’s definitely a different and new feeling for me. Not just fulfilment, I’ve felt that before.
Be careful what you wish for kids. Heh. Cause this thing does something.