Hey guy’s
I would like to record my jounrney here.
A bit over a month ago, i started my manifesting journey. Learning skills, using the fields i posess, become calm and reach and maintain inner clarity. (this is till now the hardest part)
I wrote pages and pages in my reality note, in the knowing it will help restructure my subconscious and aid in removing blocks. I shifted to a reality, where everything stated is fullfilled. And i moved forward bit for bit.
My main goal is to take the complete responsibility for my life. It’s a hard truth to realize and i can believe that it’s true. Absolutely everything that happens in my life is in my responsibility. It’s really a hard and very overwhelming truth. How people treat me, what i experience, what i do and what i get.
I changed some assumptions about my relationship and i am threatened completely different, altough i didn’t verbally set any boundaries. It’s crazy. Where first were accusations and allegations, there is now a more loving tone, much less conflicts and if it happens there is apology and insight. Slowly but steady, i can be more, who iam and stand my ground.
Also another important goal is to learn manifesting, deep meditation and connecting/communicating/trusting my higher self/god/my soul.
The connecting thing is also hard for me till now, I’m trying that on and off for 4 years now. But i came to the conclusion, as maitreya said somewhere to me, if you become calm, you will know.
So and thanks to d.b 's post in epsilon brainwave thread i found/where drawn to an hypnosis to anchor the toughtfree state and deep relaxation.
Doing this hypnosis since the beginning of the week, and yes have some trouble to maintain that state, but repetition will bring me closer to my goal. This is something new to me. Perseverance.
The only thing im constant in the last years was in using a lot of fields, and yes i got much improvements from them, but also I’m addicted using fields for this/for that. Now I got the power to choose some of them, related to god/higher self connection and some with active commands and manifestation fields.
This week i had my mpu, and it was in parts a very good experience. Only the psychological conversation felt very shitty. But she said, it was a good conversation, we will see. Eventually i have to do an retraining, for getting my license back. We will see.
For now i will train entering and maintain the toughtless state and use in hypnosis/meditation neville Goddards method “isn’t it wonderful” together with the affirmation, that everything stated in the note is already fullfilled, i love it, thank you, im excited. I will see if i can get the feeling of knowing this is true.
I don’t know, if it works this way. I can’t remember everything i wrote in there consciously, but i wrote it down, so my sub will now what i mean.
This is all for now, wish you a great weekend! 
