Ok, a bit of a strange question here, perhaps unanswerable without knowing specifics, but what does it mean/say about me if I unconsciously attract an anxious overthinker into my presence?
I absolutely hate conflict and drama, not interested or comfortable with it. (For context, my pops was - and still is - a narcissist in the verbally/emotionally abusive sense, so I grew up in a fun, walking-on-eggshells environment.) My life has been mercifully drama free for a good while, though, which I owe to awesome mandalas and morphic stuff. But I dug up my old Sapien tags today and put the Plasma Flower tag on on a whim, which I haven’t worn in months… and then something happened that also didn’t occur since the last time I wore this tag.
Someone I know who I don’t speak to super regularly came up to me and shared all these thoughts from left-field that plainly reveal they’re assuming things about me that aren’t true, etc. They seem to be worried that I might’ve had a problem with them or I’m assuming the worst of them when I had no thoughts in my head until now, when they created a situation out of nothing. I seriously thought this was settled and over with the last time I spoke with them months ago, when I told them that everything is fine because it was, and to trust me when I say that, etc etc.
Anyway, what I’m trying to find out is this: Is it pure coincidence that this awkward social situation has happened, or is there no such thing as coincidence in the universe?
All I want is to go about my life in peace, lmao. Not liking this feeling as if I have to now be Super Careful lest someone is to misinterpret something I say or do. >>
I have my Chameleon mandala on and everyday, I listen to Sapien’s ‘negate negative planetary effects’ audio, so those have been pretty great.
edit: Just had a tiny chocolate edible and the worry and discomfort this episode produced is totally mellowing, heh. Right on.