I am a Virgo, and my ruler is Mercury.
My Mercury is in Libra in the eighth house, which has always been considered the house of life and death. I have always been able to speak about the most complex, sharp, and even forbidden topics. It was always easy for me to go deep and sense the subtext; I could read what a person actually meant, even if they were silent, and I saw hidden motives, fears, and desires.
I often noticed that it was important for me to create beauty with words when I spoke. In principle, my ideas and concepts can be very elegant. It was easy for me to be a bridge between people who didn’t understand each other: I always saw the logic of both sides and could turn a conflict into a constructive dialogue.
But at the same time, there were weaknesses-shadow sides.
First, there was the constant weighing of things. I could spend hours, days, or weeks choosing between two options because I was looking for the perfect balance. This led to paralysis because the price of the choice seemed so high.
I often smoothed over the rough edges where I should have told the truth to someone’s face; I often turned to diplomacy where I should have spoken harshly and directly, and people stopped hearing me.
And what annoyed me the most was excessive reflection. I had a tendency to dig into my own and others’ motives. I could endlessly analyze: “What did he mean?”, “Did I say the right thing?”, “Did I offend them?”. This created anxiety and “mental chewing gum.”
For a long time, I was very focused on how what I said looked from the outside. It was important to me that my words and thoughts were approved by significant people. At some point, I worked through this, and the integration of the Sun archetype gave me incredible lightness in self-expression.
Another thing that irritated me was that I could miss opportunities simply because I weighed them for too long. While I was thinking, circumstances changed. Often these weaknesses meant that it was difficult for me to quickly say “no” to a bad offer. I would painfully struggle to formulate a price, fearing I would seem greedy; I could spend hours choosing the wording for a social media post. I saw manipulations but was afraid to point them out directly so as not to ruin the relationship.
Also, my ego-it gave me strength of thought but also vulnerability: criticism of my actions was taken as criticism of myself. This conflicted with my emotions, where I could think one thing but feel another, creating internal tension and difficulty making decisions. Everything balanced out thanks to the integration of the virtue of integrity and, again, the Sun Archetype.
The first change I noticed: I stopped drowning in choices and learned to trust my first impulse instead of endless analysis.
I also found the courage to speak the truth, even if it disrupts the harmony. I feel that in some ways my words have become sharp, but not wounding-instead, they are healing. I used to hurt people.
I feel like I’ve started to grasp the essence differently: I orient myself faster in complex and crisis situations and act without delay. There have been several such situations, and they were quite noticeable.
For a long time, I upgraded my mind using different fields-for example, brain development fields from Sapien Medicine. At first, there was a cool effect, but after long-term use, it felt like my memory started working differently, worse. For example, my wife would remind me: “Remember when we were in Paris, went to that cafe, and it was like this?”-and I would try to remember but have no memory of being in Paris at all.
However, Mercury has now given me a phenomenal memory that remembers a lot of details. If I am learning something new or taking a big course, the next day I remember a mass of details. Moreover, I can retell the content almost completely in most cases. It happens like flashes: I’m thinking about something, analyzing, and-hop!-a connection appears with a topic I studied recently.
By the way, in the thread above, people discussed becoming “lighter.” All my life I felt truly heavy-I even wanted to order a field to reduce the influence of Earth’s gravity on me. That’s how heavy I felt. But now, a certain lightness is actually appearing.
Moreover, during the period of working with the Mercury field integration, I started losing weight because… I stepped on the scales and was a bit shocked, although I didn’t feel particularly fat. I’ll write about this later when I reach my goal, but in two weeks I’ve already dropped about five kilograms (Sports + 18/6 fasting + better nutrition + fields). My Mercury is the element of Air, and I doubt I would have bought this field specifically for weight loss, but the fact remains.
I also noticed that sometimes I want to speak simply. My speech was always complex to use the transformational energies of Pluto and go deep. Now, sometimes I want to express myself simply, without going into details (unlike my feedback on archetypes and fields-bear with me!).
I remember that before, problems arose when I said one thing and people understood something completely different, creating unpleasant situations or conflicts. For example, you make a compliment with humor, and the person gets offended. I often said things that created risks for myself, a pattern going back to childhood. Now I’ve become better at picking words and expressing exactly what I want to convey so that the person hears my actual message. And it seems to be working. Before, there was a huge amount of analysis: “Did I say it right?”, “Did they understand me correctly?”. Now that has stopped; there is a real flow of thought.
I also noticed that when person I hadn’t seen in a long time called, and right during the conversation, I was saying things that I would have had to think about for a long time before. They just flowed out. It felt like I was saying exactly what was needed, at that exact moment, and in the right way. it was so beautiful, easy, and graceful that I was surprised myself.
Usually, I had to come up with a thought first and then edit it, but here it came out “ready” and beautifully fitted into the context. It was very beautiful. I really took note of that.
Yes, I’m noticing more and more lightness, adaptability, and humor. This has diluted my Plutonian-Saturnian energies. Complex concepts have become easier to explain in simple words so that people understand.
Also, the Mercury retrograde period ends on March 20th. I didn’t notice it having any negative effect on me at all. Now I will look forward to it with more joy in the future.
that’s how things are
Essence of the Planet:
Benefits of Radiating This Field:
Beauty One Acquires Through Mercury: