You say so often that there’s something wrong with you, that you have problems with relationships with girls, that you’ve created your own rules of the game - meaning beliefs that you constantly confirm in reality.
But the world is always a reflection of what’s inside us.
If you have a certain belief inside, you will inevitably notice confirmations of that exact point of view in the outside world.
So besides working with the fields, I would recommend writing down all your beliefs on this topic and consciously replacing them.
For example:
Imagine the phrase “I am incredibly attractive to girls.”
Feel it, turn it over in your head - and you will notice how your inner state changes.
If you repeat this every day, your identity will start to transform, and you will start to see confirmation of these new opinions and self-perception in the outside world.
But I would recommend starting with working on the fields related to your parents.
A child is incredibly loyal to their mother and on a subconscious level accepts almost everything she says as truth. If your mother spoke badly about your father, you perceived her words as truth and believed them. Since you are a continuation of both your dad and your mom, you start to think about yourself the same way your mom thought about your father. And you continue to prove these beliefs to yourself again and again.
There could be other beliefs based on loyalty to your mother. For example: “I must not be like my father, so as not to upset my mother.” This means you might reject your masculine side, not accept the masculine energy within yourself, and girls will simply sense that and reflect it back to you.
It could be anything, but the roots almost always go back to the relationship with your parents.
That’s why deep work on yourself always begins with working through your relationship with your parents.
All problems with relationships begin with problems in the relationship with yourself.
Problems in the relationship with yourself begin with problems in the relationship with your parents.