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Is it possible that the Shadow Aspect takes over in a certain time of life.
Let’s say I’m an Empath. Full fledged.
My nature is quite soft and I can feel deeply. I used to feel other People’s Pain and wanted to help them out. I got absued and stepped on, but still kept helping. At some point It became too much to bear.
My Self Respect was too low and my Soul cried out. That’s when I removed almost all People from my life.
After that, the Development of my shadow aspects began. I observed the People around me. I kept falling into old patterns, but I was observing. And finally I learned and applied my knowledge. I am now in possession of intricate knowledge of the human Psychology without even studying it. (Knowledge about others, not myself)
Now I’ve gotten to a point where my Shadow is becoming stronger and stronger. I don’t tolerate BS in my life. I don’t tolerate Deception and dishonesty. I don’t tolerate disrespect.
Doesn’t mean I have become louder, actually the contrary. I’ve become more silent than before. Immovable. Indifferent.
And I don’t mind that. It’s my Power after all. But I lost something along the way. Something I want to share with People who deserve it.
My capability to love and care deeply.
It’s gone. I don’t feel love anymore. I used to feel it so strongly, but it is gone now.
Locked up somewhere inside.
And what even is the shadow? I just read above that feeling emotions can also be part of it. Which is actually the light side and which the shadow side?
Tomorrow I will have a Treatment ghat might help with this, but I wanted to know about the shadow aspect. I’m also wtching some Videos about Carl Jung to get a better understanding of it.
But maybe someone here has went through this process already.
And if not maybe this post can be a reminder that it might be time to start feeling the world again. It used to be unbearable, but now with the strength of the Shadow, it is our greatest Power
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There comes a point when, after doing a lot of inner work on yourself, a mode of consciousness activates that did not exist before. Just as you can at any time be neutral or in your shadow, as you say, you can also consciously enter into love for the people you decide truly deserve it. Now you have a filter that helps you choose people — not everyone needs to be close to you; what matters is that the people who are meant for you are close to you.
It’s also possible that the situation with your mother over the last 6 months has influenced this, because the person closest to you — your mother — set boundaries and in a way pushed you out of unconditional love. It’s like with cats: when kittens become around 2 months old, their mother starts hitting them, hissing at them, and chasing them away — she wants her milk to stop so she can move on and find another male. She no longer cares about the babies who, until then, were cuddling with her, drinking warm milk, while she brought them little mice and lizards, played with them, taught them how to climb trees, and so on. Then suddenly, the next day, they are thrown out and have to manage life on their own, fight for territory, and find a way to survive by themselves. And for a while, it is struggle and battle before they find a human to care for and feed them, a territory where other cats won’t attack them, and so on.
Maybe those are the feelings you’re experiencing right now? :)))
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Osho Zen Tarot
Card: Integration
The figure appears in the Integration Osho Zen represents the mystical union, the fusion of the opposite sides. This is the time when the opposites that we have experienced in life meet up. Instead of the night fighting the day, the darkness suppressing the light, they are combined to create a unity, constantly changing from this element to another, each containing in its pure nature the seed of the opposite.
Eagles and swans both symbolize soaring and august. The eagle embodies power and loneliness. While the swan embodies space and purity. It’s effortlessly floating, sinking, and then blending into the emotional elements, completely satisfied and blessed with its perfection and beauty.
We are the integration of eagles and swans: men and women, fire and water, life and death. The card “Integration” represents the essence of creation, of new life and mystical harmony; also known as the alchemy.
When the Integration Osho Zen appears, there is a conflict between humans. It can only be solved there, not somewhere else. The political view exists in you; between the two halves of mind connected by a small bridge. If the bridge is broken by an accident, because of a physiological defect or any other reason, a person would be separated, become two new different people – that is schizophrenia symptom or Personality disorders.
If the bridge breaks – because it’s originally fragile – then you will become 2 people, behave like two different people. You may look cute and gorgeous in the morning; eventually, you will become very angry, completely different in the evening. You don’t remember yourself in the morning … Of course, you do not? because other’s mind are active – one person becomes two. If the bridge is so strong that two minds would disappear and become one, then the integration and a new crystallization occur.
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Yeah that’s true
The situation you describe might have added on top of it, but what I’m describing has been going on for much longer. It’s more like that softer part has been hurt so deeply that it has shut off and what remains is the shadow.
But something has happened now and I will see how it turns out 
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Your psyche switches between the poles of duality in order to survive.
Humans do not have the ability to shut off certain individual feelings while leaving others intact.
For example, when you experienced the unbearable pain of being walked all over, your psyche made the decision to switch off your sensitivity to save you from destruction.
You entered a state of petrification or numbness. It is something like a biological defense mechanism. In nature, when a predator tries to eat an animal, the animal shuts down its senses so as not to feel the pain.
By turning off pain and vulnerability, you automatically turned off love and joy as well. Now you and your psyche are safe, but this safety is cold and devoid of life.
The Shadow is not something bad, it is merely the repressed parts of your personality that were once forbidden or deemed dangerous.
In your case, while you were a soft empath, your strength, aggression, ability to say “no,” and defense of your boundaries were in the shadow. Now the shadow has come to the forefront and become your protection. But now your softness and love have gone into the shadow.
Globally speaking, if a person suppresses their strength, it means their strength is in the shadow. If they suppress their tenderness, then tenderness becomes the shadow side.
Your ability to see right through people is not exactly a knowledge of psychology, it is the work of your traumatized parts and projections. Being a traumatized empath, you learned to hypersensitively monitor the space around you for danger, and now you subconsciously use this skill to instantly recognize disrespect and the nonsense you are told as a threat.
What you call “the nature of an empath” is likely connected to the systemic role of the rescuer. You helped others out of a deficit of self-worth or to earn the right to exist. By working on yourself, you simply stepped out of this Karpman drama triangle, but you went to the other extreme - into isolation and indifference.
I would work with the parts of yourself through the Soul Reunification field.
You need to acknowledge both of your parts - the part of you that wants to love, and the part of you that wants to be safe and let no one near.
The task is to find the point where you can be both strong and feeling at the same time, without running into extremes.
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Wow that makes so much sense!
So the shadow is always the part that is repressed. It is not a fixed set if characteristics.
It’s dynamic and can adapt to life.
Now my Shadow has become the softer side, so that side is repressed.
Interesting! So by working with the Shadow integration field I am now more working towards integrating the softer side back to cone into balance.
I think I’m gonna be off that wheel very soon. I was carrying so much inside me. That is all gone energetically now.
The Physical just has to catch up. I was trying to be the savior. Got caught in Peoples Problems instead of solving them.
I’m switching from Saviour to Healer. To actual Problem Solver instead of Problem Facer.
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