The Moon is my earliest and deepest wound and my main resource for healing the maternal line, home and emotions. This is because it is conjunct Chiron in the fourth house of my natal chart.
Probably the most significant effect I can note after a month of working with this archetype is that I have stopped avoiding and fearing my emotions. I have learned to endure and experience pain without falling apart. In my context, this means being able to feel unpleasant emotions that I used to suppress or freeze.
I used to either do that or my emotions would overwhelm me with chaos. I did not know how to properly process unpleasant feelings so I tried to avoid them. For example, I suppressed pain because I learned that as a man, I should not cry. I had to be strong. Or I would freeze my emotions, disconnecting from my body and retreating into thoughts and work.
Now I have begun to feel both positive and negative emotions more strongly. I feel joy as much as grief. I feel pain fully, without suppression and without being overwhelmed. I understand that this feeling will not last forever so I give it time and space. I endure the pain even when it is great without being destroyed.
Surely all this will help me healthily go through all stages of grief at a natural pace without getting stuck or running away.
Even now while writing this text I realize that processing unpleasant feelings is a cycle that must be completed. Otherwise unprocessed feelings and emotions will get stuck in the body. Unprocessed emotions have no statute of limitations. First they constantly hum in the background, affecting not only the body but also accumulating, creating bigger problems in the body and its systems. Then some trigger will set off a reaction and the person will eventually experience those emotions anyway. It might happen that grief unprocessed at 15 gets processed at 60, having caused many problems in various areas of life in the meantime. Or it may never be processed in this lifetime.
I understand that the cycle of processing consists of certain stages. For example when pain turns into sadness, sadness turns into warm melancholy, and then into gratitude that this being was in your life. That is how I see it now on the eve of the death of my German Shepherd with whom I have lived for over 15 years. Processing feelings toward animals is deeper I think because throughout evolution animals have not caused us as much pain as humans have. And dogs, it seems to me, were created to show what unconditional love is, to teach humans how to love and feel.
In short, tears now flow freely without shame. I can cry looking at a photo of the animal, then drink some tea, talk to someone, and cry again. And this is not getting stuck. It is processing. Then the heaviness always turns into warmth. After processing comes letting go without guilt and without getting stuck in the past, and then maintaining connection through memory, gratitude and warm melancholy.
Integrating the Moon does not remove pain. It removes the fear and avoidance of pain. You stop being afraid, running away and suppressing. And when you stop fearing pain, it becomes just energy that moves through you instead of getting stuck inside, turning into depression, psychosomatic issues or chronic anxiety.
An integrated Moon does not make the pain smaller. It makes you larger than the pain.
Previously I tried to explain pain, analyze it, find the cause. Integrating the Moon allowed me not to flee into analysis but simply to feel. And crucially, to withstand the blow without falling apart.
My Capricorn ascendant made me keep face to avoid losing respect. Integrating the Moon gave me permission to be vulnerable without fear of losing respect.
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I feel like my chronic anxiety about home and family has started to disappear. Lately it has been less but before I constantly worried. What if something happens to the house even in the context of war, constant missiles and drones. What if my mom gets sick. What if I cannot build something. What if I cannot help. After integration I stopped being a source of anxiety and my feelings and emotions are increasingly becoming a place of strength not only for me but also for other people.
Chiron conjunct the Moon in my natal chart is a wound from my mother. Due to her coldness and lack of unconditional love. This wound was always projected onto all the women I interacted with. Partners, colleagues, women around me. I think integrating this archetype is the final step in my acceptance of my mother and healing my relationship with her, and indeed with all women in the world.
I increasingly accept my mother as she is without trying to change her, without resentment, without expecting anything she cannot give.
The projection that all women are like my mother has disappeared. I even feel that my wife is no longer an object of criticism or disappointment because I was projecting the mother image onto her. I have worked on this theme for a long time but now as a final chord, and possibly after integrating this archetype, I will definitely be able to build more balanced, warm and trusting relationships with women. I am even sure they will be delighted with me because I will feel them even more and they will heal through contact with me and my healed feminine and masculine parts. In contact with me they can touch the energy of how things are truly meant to function, and subconsciously they will surely take something for themselves.
If the Uranian archetype’s energy sometimes gave detailed knowledge about a situation, the Moon added a kind of natural intuition. A pure, soft and unerring inner compass that gives understanding of whom to trust, where to go, when to stop. Without fear, without paranoia. Just feeling that this is mine, that this is where I need to go.
Interestingly I started thinking about how to earn money from real estate and how to monetize the two land plots I have or rather our family has. My afflicted Moon is in the fourth house of my chart which is connected to roots, ancestry, land and real estate. Completely unexpectedly I had the idea to earn money from that land. To build something there, rent it out and so on. It is as if a new path opened up, one that was available as an option but that I never noticed before.
The cycle of mood swings has also disappeared. Several years ago my mood could change like a rollercoaster. Euphoria and breakthroughs, then depression and the desire to quit everything. I healed that for a very long time. After integration my emotional baseline became even and stable.
I did not become numb. I did not become avoidant of deep feelings. I still feel deeply but without the destructive swings. Essentially this gives an ability. When things are bad around you, when there is war, people dying, many people, when there is nervous tension, a crisis or some abnormal situation, you do not sink into that range of negative emotions. You simply know what to do in that situation.
I have also become much softer without fear of losing control. If my main planets, Capricorn and Saturn, made me rigid and stony, where softness equaled vulnerability, loss of control or disaster, now there is more tenderness and care and simultaneously the ability to remain strong. My softness has not made me weak. It keeps me strong but at the same time it has made me more influential because people perceive me differently. Not as a prickly hedgehog to keep at a distance but as someone capable of understanding, listening and accepting.
During the process of working with the Moon archetype I did notice that when I became too soft, I lost my will and dissolved into emotions. In some moments I fell into deep passivity. You feel everything, you sense everything but you do not act. I allowed emotions to control me instead of using them as navigation. For example I felt comfortable in the moment, I enjoyed the present but I knew I needed to do something. Yet I did not because I was comfortable and blissful in my inner state. I chose to feel those emotions in the present moment.
I do not think this will become a problem for me because one of my favorite archetypes has become the Shapeshifter which allows me to instantly switch between states. It works brilliantly on autopilot, choosing the state needed for each specific moment. For example the Moon gives softness and sensitivity, Saturn gives structure and discipline, Pluto gives depth and power, Mars gives aggression and drive. The Shapeshifter allows me to switch between these archetypes instantly and activate exactly the ones I need at any given moment. And that is incredibly cool.
So here is my advice. Pay attention to the position of the Moon in your natal chart. Pay attention to your emotions, to your basic inner emotional state. If you have problems with your Moon or your inner emotional state, if you have problems in your relationship with your mother, this archetype is essential to integrate because it can provide that stable inner emotional state that no other planet can give. I stopped fearing my feelings, stopped worrying about home, stopped projecting my mother’s pain onto women. Inner security, soft strength and pure intuition appeared. Essentially this softness has added another brick to my personality, making me even more alive and invulnerable in my wholeness.
For men, integrating the Moon without integrating the structure and framework that Saturn provides can be dangerous because the Moon blurs boundaries and leads to passivity. Though if that is exactly what you want, why not.
For women I believe healing the Moon is essential to integrate because it lays the foundation for relating to your feminine energy and for healthy relationships with a partner.
I think the Moon is the most underestimated planet in terms of shadow work and it is one of those planets that most deeply affects our soul.
Throughout all times, during wars and difficult periods, people turned off their feeling and emotional parts to avoid experiencing pain. Have you progressed enough on your spiritual path to reactivate feeling within yourself, to begin experiencing the full spectrum even of the most unpleasant emotions with incredible depth. Are you ready to face all those unprocessed feelings from this lifetime and past incarnations. Only you can answer these questions.
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Beauty One Acquires Through the Moon: