Downloading own knowledge

What is the problem? Be more specific.

I have been looking to get the Best mental health and physical health but my past where I got to think I have any entity to help me in my mind eating me up it was all my brain which was making but now I fear that darkness is running behind of me and other shittt
And also now for my higher is it letting fields to work for healing and other’s as he asked to himself in Book of health as he said he would Make me healthy as possible
Don’t know what’s happening with higher self and what’s these fear based thoughts

I think that will solve your problems. Read about the field in “Celestial Essence” section.

We all have a dark side. Our past lives, our choices, decisions were not always good. And it’s okay, we can learn from our mistakes. You can’t be fully complete without shadow work. Trust me it is not as bad as you think it is. This is where your long forgotten powers, boundaries and who you really are. Those rejected parts of you needs to be acknowledged, accepted and either integrated or healed.
Every time you level up spiritually, there is a moment that is called the Dark Night of the Soul. It feels like madness, extreme loneliness and complete loss of hope, needs, anything. This is the moment when you need to stop run away. Look at yourself with honesty. Then accept that you’re a complex human being with even more complicated past, and THIS IS OK.
The Dark Night of the Soul is not the attack of demons or dark beings, it’s your Higher Self demand to purge what no longer belongs to you.