Hello,
I came to realize that my body itself is not able to integrate much food,water or medicine alone as whenever i do drink or eat, it just feels like im feeding an external thing or like an invisible body to others that feels nourished but my actual physical body has no healing. I did some to realize during maitreya’s guru field that a so called spiritualist had rather done dark stuff that no other healing modaility works and he uses my energy or trying to get a control and then making it seem like a problem occured. Anyhow, its because i heard some energies of him trying to maniuplate my food, water etc. Anyhow, aside from that. Im tired of feeling like different energies bodies and not having like a solid body like how others do. Especially that feeling of energy fields. Could this indicate subtle body damage or whats going on? I need a healed physical body. Ive tried all medical stuff, no concerns. Energetic, hmmm. I think so.