I’ll be honest with you, because I’m all about being real.
I honestly don’t care whether you stay on the forum or not.
The forum has long since turned into a living entity that operates by its own rules. It accepts people who fit in and rejects those who don’t. If you are useful to the forum, it will keep you and accept you. Only time will tell.
The forum has always been a place where people who were afraid to speak up and express their thoughts received all the support they needed. They were never shamed for their thoughts, words, or actions.
I also didn’t notice results from some fields, or didn’t get what I was hoping for. But sometimes I got results from completely different fields and in a totally different area than what they were intended for. And I wrote about all my experiences on the forum.
Honestly, I find it funny watching how stubbornly you refuse to see that the world is just a mirror of what’s inside you. What you see in other people belongs to you, and the world merely reflects it.
Just 8 months ago, you wrote that your parents had narcissistic and borderline personality disorders and ran the family like a cult.
Here is that post, by the way.
If you had enough self-awareness, you would realize that what you’re trying to see in others or in the forum right now is just your learned pattern of interacting with your parents and the world.
I won’t explain to you how it works, but if you ask even basic questions to ChatGPT, you’ll understand what I mean.
Right now, it’s obvious that you still have a long way to go in your healing just to reach a more stable level of emotional resilience.
If you see narcissists in other people - it’s not about other people.
If you try to see borderline personality disorder in others - it’s not about other people.
If you see a cult in other communities - it has nothing to do with a cult or the community.
It only has to do with you, your family, your worldview, your mindset, your behavioral patterns, and the trauma that was instilled in you by your family. (Notice how the exact same patterns are driving you, and how you’re trying to repeat the same escape )
If you want to dive deeper into healing your internal psychological processes, ask yourself these questions: “What inside me is causing me to react this way? What inside me makes this person trigger me so much? Why does this piss me off?”
That is how you will come to understand your triggers, your behavioral patterns, and realize what issues lie within you. Once you realize them, you will find ways to heal, if you want to.
As they say when police try to investigate complex cases: “The main rule of this investigation is not to end up investigating yourself.”
Good luck to you. On the forum, in life, in trading, and in healing.
P.S.: It’s interesting how the Compassion Attunement field works. In the past, my strong Pluto and Mars would have written a harsh text that would be hard to recover from. But in the end, the final text turned out to be very soft. Way too soft.