You won’t be able to react any differently as long as old emotions, old behavioral patterns, old triggers, old feelings, and old neural pathways live inside you.
You can’t expect outside changes without changing your perception, your perspective, your conclusions, and your behavioral patterns.
Every second, your thoughts, feelings, and emotions shape your reality. Because you have so deeply accepted that this is who you are, treating your childhood views of yourself, along with your perception of your parents, the world, and others, as absolute facts, you have wired your brain so strongly that you unknowingly recreate the very same cycle over and over.
On top of that, you’re likely a highly sensitive person who picks up information in the form of vibrations belonging to others and adopts them as your own.
If you believe your parents are emotionally immature, you will see them that way, and they will show up that way toward you.
If you believe you have to prove something, then you will.
If you feel hatred, irritation, anger, or resentment, you will create people, events, and circumstances in your external reality that resonate with those feelings and bring them out.
And so on.
The world operates on resonance - what you radiate is what you receive.
If you shift what’s inside - your thoughts, perspectives, beliefs, and feelings - and start broadcasting that into the outer world, the world will begin reflecting entirely new events back to you.
You are the root cause of everything.
The fastest route to massive change is clearing out the heaviest emotions that have only grown heavier over your lifetime. Resentment, for example, has likely curdled into hatred - meaning parts of you straight up hate your parents for blaming them for all your troubles… But if you purge this from your energetic structure, it’ll be much easier to rewrite your neural pathways and build new ones.
I’d grab Emotional Replacer (I regret not getting it sooner) and set up a challenge for myself until the end of the year-100 days of a gratitude/self-programming journal.
Honestly, I’d do it twice a day: morning and night.
Here’s the principle
You start by giving thanks for what’s already in your life, and as soon as that feeling of gratitude rises (there’s also a cool mandala if you struggle with this - Ideal State), you start giving thanks for what isn’t there yet, but as if it’s already a reality.
For example:
1. I am grateful that I woke up today.
2. I am grateful that I can walk, speak, and smile.
3. I am grateful for the support on the forum.
4. I am grateful for delicious coffee.
…
22. …
23. I am grateful to my parents for giving me life.
24. I am grateful for achieving success.
25. I am grateful that life turned out great.
26. I am grateful that everyone is so kind to me.
…
40 I am grateful for my high self-esteem.
And so on.
Also write down everything about how you would like to be treated, and express it as gratitude:
I am grateful that my parents love and respect me.
I am grateful that other people value me highly.
etc.
By doing this, you’ll start rewiring your neural connections, your perception, and your reactions… and you’ll see how your new perception starts shaping a new reality around you.
If you change your perception of the people you hate to something else, like gratitude, you’ll see their perception of you shift as well… They’ll start treating you differently, saying different things, and so on…
Because you are the root cause of everything.
What you radiate is what you receive.
If you stick it out for 100 days, you’ll see your life transform.
I’d also grab some kind of field for protection against other people’s emotions, like Diamond Aura.
