It may sound like I haven’t made any Progress, but this year alone I’ve made so so much!!!
My entire behaviour has changed. I am more calm in stressful situations, I don’t feel wounded anymore. I’ve started healing my inner child. My relationship with my Dad has gotten really good. Relationship with mum still a bit rocky, but my boundaries have been set. I have made choices that were uncomfortable, but that were necessary. I’ve accepted my own strength and stopped hurting myself. I even know that my path is the path of a Healer.
I learned some Things about my past lives, and that I’ve done some really cool stuff
I’ve learned that my Soul is a pretty cool one too, some might know it 
I’ve made so much progress. It’s crazy actually.
I think I have raised my standards so freaking high, that I can’t seem to acknowledge my accomplishments even though they are substantial!
Still I feel like I need to do more and more and more. This nagging feeling keeps popping up. „I have to improve"
And I just have to be honest, I can’t shake the feeling of being a cheater, because I use Fields.
I’ve tried ignoring that thought, but it keeps popping back up.
But the one Factor that hits me straight in the Face is my Energy Level. It goes up and down up and down. One week good, the next 2 shit.
And so for now I will treat it physically and check my Organs. My Kidneys had bad Results, and I’ve known that since February. And they weren’t too good 3 years ago as well.
I never did anything, because I was so „spiritual" and stopped trusting normal Medicine altogether! Corona messed with my Trust very badly!
But now I will make some checks and will also use Frequencies to target my Kidneys especially and also other organs, snd I’ll reduce my Protein intake for now. They were also hurting a lot when I was a child, plus I masturbated so much during my teenage years, that I should be dead now 
And you might be right. When I was training actively for Boxing, Muay Thai, Mma I was so good after a short while.
I could push through so much, but I guess my body couldn’t take it anymore
And then coupled with some abilities…It sounds so good! But my Body can’t keep up. My Desire is not there. I can set 10.000 Goals and it doesn’t matter.
I am either 100% or 0. The curse or blessing of ADHD.
Anyways thanks for chiming in 