Self-care is no1 when you want to have a strong and stable aura Visualization during working with fields helps a lot. You can play audio and visualize that this energy removes everything that is not yours.
Small steps are still steps moving forward. I am sure with time you will become as strong as you want to be but also soft when it feels right.
@tinyAnna focus on your own clearing and healing. By this you help your ancestors and innocent people who were born into your family and got trapped by their occultic practices.
Here is the list for protection and list for ancestral healing pick fields that resonate with you
Every person who do personal healing is every person that is no longer under their control. You can’t do things for others and set them free. They must do it by themselves, you can only show them how.
Visualization during working with fields helps a lot. You can play audio and visualize that this energy removes everything that is not yours.