It feels to me like this field has changed my attitude toward money, abundance, and wealth so deeply and powerfully that I actually have to put myself back together from scratch just to understand what it even is and how to make it.
If before everything was very simple - you just want to have money, you stress out about it, you take some actions, and you get it - now my attitude toward money has changed so drastically and it has become so much less of a priority that at first, I actually felt uncomfortable.
I used to live in a constant race, in a perpetual craving for money, money, money, living in a state of tension when it came to achieving and getting what I wanted. For me, it is actually uncomfortable to achieve anything without tension; meaning, I used to deliberately trap myself in environments where that kind of tension would be created.
It’s like dealing with deadlines, you know, when you do nothing for three weeks and then in one week, you accomplish more than you did in a month. Well, I had that exact same attitude toward money: I deliberately created constraints for myself to generate high tension around earning and creating money, so I could drive myself forward on that energy.
With the clearing of other fields, as well as the integration of this field, my working blueprint has collapsed.
I started looking at money differently. Moreover, my desire for money has transformed. It is hard to want money just for the sake of it - there absolutely has to be some kind of value behind it now. The thirst for money for money’s sake is gone, and so is that frantic hustle and tension for it.
I’ve noticed that certain events are unfolding in amazing ways: imagine needing money, and you just call someone, and it feels as if they were waiting for your call just to give it to you.
It feels like this field has cleared the blocks around receiving and accepting money. Obviously, there were plenty of other fields involved, but now when someone hands me money, I don’t experience any unpleasant emotions - in fact, I rejoice in it. While money used to be tied to negativity, now it is tied to joy, and I allow myself to receive money and have it.
Money has started sitting out in the open around the house, even when people come over to visit. Meaning, I just know that the money is there, and it’s not hidden away inside the nightstand, but sitting right on top of it. I walk past it all the time, and it feels good to see that it’s there - I don’t have to hide it. I never would have allowed myself to do this before.
I feel comfortable when friends come over and see money just lying around. I don’t worry that something will happen to it or that someone will steal it. Given my past and my ancestral history involving the seizure of property and loss of money, this is just an unreal, completely new feeling. Totally unfamiliar to me.
It truly creates the feeling that money is literally energy functioning between people. It’s not just some theory you read about in books, but a very real, living sensation. I’ve been working with the field for over 50 days. Over the past month, I honestly cannot recall a single instance where I stressed over money. Even when there was a reason to stress - like when I needed money to pay someone back but didn’t have it - I had zero anxiety. Just a total sense of peace and relaxation regarding money.
I also feel like I am ready to let any amount of money into my life. Furthermore, even if someone just comes up and gifts me money, I won’t feel any negative emotions about getting it for nothing, or think that “you have to earn it,” and so on. I won’t feel any heavy emotions; I will just take it and be grateful. For me, this is actually a massive achievement.
My whole life, there was this feeling that money is tied to suffering, and I think every single member of my family’s older generation projected this, from my parents down to my grandparents. All of them worked hard, and they all constantly pushed their perspective on me: that you have to work hard, you have to work, work, work, and specifically slave away. And it was such a heavy burden, because at some point I began to realize that other people don’t slave away for money; they break out of these behavioral models where work is strictly associated with grueling labor and the idea that you can only get something through hard toil. But now, a feeling has emerged that it can be done differently - that money can be easy, joyful, and fluid. It can be whatever you imagine and make it, because it is your perception that shapes its character.
For some reason, I’ve also started noticing other people’s money mindsets. And I don’t just notice them - I am completely unfazed by them. I don’t try to lecture them, teach them, or explain anything, even if it concerns people close to me. I just understand that this is their worldview and their relationship with money, while mine is different, and that’s it.
According to my natal chart, it was indicated that I subconsciously believe that to get big money, I must go through hell, burnout, loss, humiliation, or a crisis - and that this is my personal hell, or rather, a conditional contract. Now I understand that money can come easily. What’s more, it has started coming easier, and the work tied to making money looks nothing like the grueling labor my parents and grandparents envisioned. And money didn’t start coming easily because I became lazy, but because I stopped blocking the receiving channel with fear, shame, and the belief that I have to earn or deserve everything.
Undoubtedly, the integration of virtues helped with this too, but I started receiving money without checking “are they going to screw me over?”; I simply started receiving money without the guilt of “I didn’t earn this,” and I started receiving money without the feeling that “punishment will follow.”
By the way, I also noticed that before, whenever I received an amount that felt significant to me, I would immediately start sabotaging myself. Something would start happening: I’d pick a fight with someone, act stupid, pull back into the shadows, or stop putting myself out there. But now I understand that my expansion is no longer a threat to myself, and that I can handle, accept, and receive any amount, just as I wrote above. It feels like an internal brake has vanished. I can set a high price for my services, and it feels completely normal to me. It seems like I can be out in the open more and more without the urge to hide.
It feels like that classic cycle I used to have is fading away: a large income - after a while the money disappears (expenses, debts, problems, helping others) - crisis again - earning again. Instead, a kind of stability is emerging - not as a stagnant state, but as a steady baseline that I don’t drop below. I can just hold onto money, and I don’t lose it through ancestral programming, helping others, or illusionary investments. I can also accumulate and multiply it, and that feels normal. That’s the feeling.
In short, I’ve started enjoying money without guilt; it has become a natural expression of abundance. Of course, given my natal chart, it’s hard to get used to this new feeling of peace. To use an analogy, it’s like a soldier coming back from war: if he lived on a constant adrenaline rush there and needed non-stop emotional roller coasters up and down, then when he returns to civilian life, it feels boring and uncomfortable. He doesn’t feel alive here, whereas the adrenaline there made him feel alive. I had that exact same feeling with money. I was used to the swings - now you have it, now you don’t, constantly being in debt - I lived in that. But now, it’s a completely different feeling of softness, flow, and stability. It’s unfamiliar to me, though; I am still adapting.
I had the same feeling when my family relationships smoothed out and became free of emotional roller coasters. That was also bizarre for the first few months, or even longer. But I understand that in the realms of money and family, this is exactly how it should be - this is the healthy state. Any emotional roller coasters can easily be found in extreme sports or some other activity. Money and family, however, are areas where things should be stable.
What this field activates
Benefits often reported:
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