You’re welcome. I’d like to get it soon. I bet it would work well with Divinity Activation since that is also Higher Self directed.
I know what you mean. Sometimes we want control to help us along. Usually if it comes we don’t want it because it’s really only to help the controller. But here it sounds right.
Just hoping in the future that this DM and a field with a name “Woven Contentment” will work cooperatively.
The higher self has your own voice. The speech patterns may differ though. It comes through with clarity and the vibration of knowing. It almost seems like its some spiritual/philisophical qoute. This has been my experience. There is also a feeling of familiaraity like remembering the comforting perfection of divinity.
When you have experienced this you can recognize others who also express this energy of their higher self. I havent experienced this for a long time until today listening to divine invocation. Once you know this energy, you start to notice the feeling you hold when oberserving/experiencing it.
The higher self doesn’t hold judgment but instead unconditional love and understanding. When in alignment with the higher self, you are your true self.
Hello.
So i have this mandala, and other clearing and balancing mandalas.
I just want to confirm if it is really a message from my Higher self.
I have this manager at work who seems to be a perfectionist (and probably overextending herself with her role)
I feel pressure in my chest and anxiety when I’m talking to her, but i already have mandalas for shielding against negative energies from people and some mandalas for entities.
So i mentally asked a question about this directed to my higher self.
What i got is this, No matter how i work hard, they will always forget/move on and the bar will always move higher. ( I know this is true, they are eager to please their client even if they’re not suite/underprepared)
Now that I’m typing this, I am feeling that bit of anxiety again.
In the past, I did have the tendency to be a perfectionist too.
but is this type of push necessary to make me realize that? I already know it is not healthy. Why give me anxiety and chest pressure?
I can’t just abandon my work that fast, It’ll affect my reputation.
It’ll take some time to find another work.
If someone can sense if there’s an interference between me and my higher self please let me know so i can clear things up in my head.
I am on the path to be able take initiative and be more decisive, And I am already practicing that.
But with anxiety and chest pressure, It is taking away my energy.
Which is very counterintuitive.
Please let me know if you can sense something else around me, Maybe I’ll consult a local reiki master in the near future but I’d like to have other opinions for now.
Thank you in advance 
Update: I added back Close portals DM to my time breaker folder.
I felt better.
So i guess that narrows down the reasons.
Still open for suggestions and advice <3
When we are confronted with our triggers, we can have a strong physical response. Some people would avoid making life-changing decisions because they suddenly feel anxiety and stress.
This is mostly because your subconscious mind is trying to prevent change.
If your manager is overperforming, it might cause you feelings of guilt and tension because it triggers your perfectionism. You don’t want to do this way anymore, you see it is harmful but your subconscious mind still operates with old programs. Hence, discomfort and stress.
Yes, I do believe so.
This pattern of behaviour also exists from my mother so it really is deeply engrained inside my mind.
This helped us push through hurdles and obstacles back then, My mom really hustled hard and we increased our income.
So this has been my mindset too, but since i belong to a newer generation i have to let loose and be more flexible than her.
The world is way faster now, That’s why in my mind i want to be able to take more risk, have stronger initiative and be more decisive.
About the perfectionism connected to the manager, I also have a situation prior to this when i elevated the quality of output in our department.
It became the standard, and because of this…Some co-workers has to keep up and the bosses keeps benefiting from it without proper compensation for any of us.
There’s also this guy who got taken advantage off during that time. I feel for him and also for the others.
I can’t do anything for them, because i did love that job and i enjoyed working with one of the bosses who kept pushing the bar.
I don’t want that to happen anymore.
If i want to push myself that hard, I want it to be a freelance work/project.
Yeah, It’s a messy pasta inside my head…A bit of this and that from different parts of my life.
I know it isn’t my fault, And it’s not my responsibility to fix someone else’s business.
I just don’t want to be a reason to guilt workers like me into over delivering beyond what is agreed upon.
I started working in an early age, So i know the feeling when my passion and diligence is being taken advantage of.
You’re very self-aware, so I am sure, you will find the right solution to this situation 
Sometimes, it’s all about setting boundaries with your work, your colleagues and your boss. Like this here
Btw people with a father wound are overperformers, overachievers, and perfectionists.